The 10-Point Plan for De-Stressing
So the neck, my neck, is still a disaster zone. I've been thinking about stress. Since I went to the massage therapist, I noticed how I constantly hold my shoulders up and keep my jaw clenched. I'm pretty sure this episode is a revival of my PTSD after the house imploded last week. It was scary - loud explosion sound, shaking house, debris flying into the hallway. That's some flashback fodder for you. Even when I am lying down my shoulders are raised. I'm getting better at noticing when I'm doing this and letting go. It's all about letting go. I've been saying to myself, "Just drop what you're carrying. Just let it go."
The thing that's bothering me is that I'm not sure how much of this is purely a physical issue and how much of it is stress related. I keep thinking, if it's stress related, I can control it by de-stressing my life. For some reason I don't think I have as much control over physical issues. That kinda strikes me as weird. I think most people would think they have more control over a physical issue. If it's stress, that means I'm responsible for it in some way.
It doesn't matter. Hello! Just let it go. Erg. I'm a control freak. As soon as something seems to be broken I have to craft a 10 point plan to FIX IT. Then the 10 point plan becomes a point of stress in and of itself. This is cracking me up. This control-freak neurosis is counter-intuitive to who I think I am. I think I'm a laid-back person. Lord, have mercy, I'm a funny woman.
This mid-life crisis shit is taking its toll.
Okay - moving on. No drawing class for me tonight because I am going to hear Maya Angelou speak. How awesome is that!?! I dreamed about her all night last night. We had very nice warm conversations with each other. I'll probably start crying the moment she walks into the room. I can't wait! And I'm looking forward to telling you all about it tomorrow.
Here's my 10-Point Plan for Destressing
- Keep breathing
- Notice the shoulders and say, "Time to let go of what you're carrying. Just drop it."
- Go soak in Maya Angelou's brilliance.
- Go to chiropractor.
- Go to massage therapist.
- Drink lots of water.
- Avoid Percocet. (That just makes things worse and weird.)
- Gentle yoga. Gentle. Gentle. Gentle.
- Smile at Maya Angelou.