My Fave Quote for the Official Launch of My Mid-life Crisis

TallulahBankhead Nobody can be exactly me, sometimes even I have trouble doing it.

-Tallulah Bankhead

What Tallulah said!

Today is the first day of my birthday month. Yes, I'm a Scorpio.

I'm turning 47 this month. I woke up this morning and thought, "Damn. I'm gonna be 47 this month. What the hell?" Literally, that was the first coherent thought I had.

I launched Disbelief Suspended in October to help myself make a transition. This blog is about my process growing from the me of the last decade into the me of the decade to come. And, yes, I'm giving myself permission to go ahead and get started with my mid-life crisis even though I'm three years away from 50.

I'm an impatient person.

So far, I know that my self-prescribed medications for dealing with this crisis include (but are not limited to): love, truth, yoga and learning to make art.

They are the main ingredients of the new recipe. Problem is I wasn't given the whole recipe. There's no cookbook. All I know is, I'm making something new.

Mixed metaphors will fall from the trees!

A friend sent me one of those ecards that circulate on FB. It said:

I am currently unsupervised. I know, it freaks me out too, but the possibilities are endless.

That sums it up perfectly. "The possibilities are endless." I love that and, at the same time, I'm thinking, "Holy crap!?! What does that mean?"

I was looking for some confirmation that I can officially call this is The Official Launch of my Mid-life Crisis and I found something cool.

In the lore of Numerology, November 2011 to November 2012 was a 9 Life Cycle Year for me. 9 is about paying off debts, wrapping it up, letting go of what you don't need/want, completion and finality.

2012 to 2013 will be a 1 Life Cycle Year - all about beginnings, discovery, exploration and new journeys.

Aha! It IS the official launch of my mid-life crisis! I knew that already, but I just wanted to make sure.

I found a lovely site called Creative Numerology written by Christine DeLory this morning. According to Christine the 1 Year Cycle is "A journey of change, new beginnings, independence and becoming who you really are!"

No matter how familiar things may seem, you are on an entirely different road now. The 1 year is the first year of a brand new nine-year cycle of your life. It urges you to create a more satisfying existence by recognizing the new potential that is developing. It is a time of change and new beginnings. ... This is a year of new interests, experiences, goals, and understandings: about life, about you, where you have been, where you are now, and where you would like to be. And, because so much drastic change is required, you will also be learning the meaning of courage. You will gain self awareness this year. You will learn about individuality, and the vital changes that must take place within you if you are to attain what you need. You will be learning about independence, leadership, and originality, and you will need great faith in yourself in order to take appropriate action. You will encounter situations involving your deepest feelings, your unique mind and talent, and your need for greater freedom.

Please check out Christine's Creative Numerology and, if you're feeling adventurous or curious and you decide to calculate your Year Cycle, let me know if it lines up with your experiences. She hit the nail on the head for me.

All that talk of my Scorpishness and Numerology, you'll think I'm so woo woo. I can be. In times of transition, I seek recognizable patterns. Assurances. Little lights of encouragement. Truth is, my woo woo self and my practical "keep the drama on the stage" self can get into some clashes with one another. My woo woo self is one of the pieces of me that I don't let out much.

I'm thinking part of this living your truth deal might include letting all the parts of myself that I keep quiet have their say. That's a little bit frightening for me. As Tallulah said ... "sometime even I have trouble doing it."

Happy trails!